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I believe in true love, but i don’t think i’m capable of being in one

I’m 20 and I’ve never been in a relationship. I want to and like to imagine myself being in a loving relationship and all the warm feelings that come with it. But when I get close to someone I feel kinda disgusted.. like “I dont like this” “I wanna end this”. I already tried..I feel like love will makes me weaker in front of other people. I believe in true love, however, I’m afraid that I’m not capable to find one. I feel like my partner will never loves me like I love him or my love for him will be gone in a few months. And also it’s so hard to believe in other people relationships like when people announce their love to the world, I often think “it’s just a phase.. they’re gonna be broke up later” or “I dont think they really love each other that much”.…

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Is it possible for Philophobia to be deeper than romance?

I experience an extreme disconnect mostly with my family and to a lesser extent my friends. I like to think I’ve hidden it well over the years but I’m beggining to think not. As a young girl my household was mostly half siblings and foster children, I had one full blooded sister just a year or so younger so obviously we were always stuck together. We were always simply “the girls” and I hated every minute of it. I nearly had a permanent scowl whenever we were out as a family, at home I was able to retreat into my own world but in public I was expected to engage and converse. She would ask me to play, I’d refuse, she’d tell my mother, my mother would get upset that I was being moody, then give me exactly what I wanted the solace of a time out.As I grew older…

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Do I have philophobia?

I’m sixteen and I’m not sure if I have philophobia.I have a lot of guy friends but i haven’t had a crush for 4 years up until now.I don’t like showing affection or intimacy, like hugging with both guys and girls. I also don’t like to open up to people and usually keep my thoughts to myself.I tell myself that no one will be capable of loving me and feel that people deserve love except me. I like to think of love. I imagine myself on dates or make up scenarios in my head about falling in love but when its in real life I end up being scared.When I find out that a guy likes me I panic. I also feel disgusted, I don’t know if its towards myself or the guy.My parents fight all the time, especially when i was younger but now they only do it once…

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Losing feelings

This is a couple years back but we met online. I know people say online dating never lasted and I think so too but I tried it anyways.I met this girl and I really liked her and we became a couple. We lived across the state and it was boring doing the same thing. I was devoted to her and very loyal but she wasn’t.For the first 3 months when we started dating she lost interest in me because of the distance we have.After we broke up for 1 month, we went back together again because she missed me and I still loved her then. We broke up a couple of times and it was very tiring.Then one day, she told me she cheated on me but I still gave her another chance. After that we broke up again. We lasted for 9 months. We talk once in a while…

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Philophobia love

You are confident You are happy You are who you want to be Living most of life’s experiences Yet fragile in one particularly isn’t everybodyAn eternity you have been searching And rarely you get this feeling Where you are both truly smitting Oh boy this is exciting Alas others share this fabled story telling I finally meet a perfect being after sharing and talking you are everything I dream of believing it’s only been a short while and hope this feeling will never die For a moment, my life becomes whole Finally a person I think worthy of my soul Thinking of you more than now and then Hoping you are also dreaming of me, amen Seeking my attention Returning your affection There is no misconception There is definitely a connection We make ourselves vulnerable and both want to be lovable So passionate and unstoppable This is truly unforgettable My…

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