Is it just me?

September 10th, 2014 by Jackie Please add a comment

Am I the only one who feels as if the whole world came crashing down when they were friend zoned or dumped or even felt like they wished they could’ve taken back the words they said to dump another person?

I feel like it’s only me that stays up some nights thinking of what could’ve been instead of what really happened. Crying my eyes out not understanding, asking Him, why me?

It’s been over 4 years since I’ve even seen him and here he is, still, evading my thoughts, my mind, my feelings, and my heart. I see him everywhere. There is always a detail in him that’s in someone else. Like, that guy over there has his smile, or that dude has his eyes, or even that little boy has the same small dimple on the left side of his face, right in the center of his cheek.

Since we’ve ended I haven’t been able to love anyone. I barely even think about liking someone, so why? Why pretend like I could ever like or love someone in a relationship.

Every time I get something good its like it is being ripped away from me right before I grasp it firmly.

To think I am sitting here crying be ‘over’ him, when in reality he probably forgot about me like everyone else has.

But, I sit here and ask myself. Does anyone else feel this way, or. Is it just me?

I am terrorized by feeling loved

September 10th, 2014 by CarlPlease add a comment

It’s always the same story: I like a woman, I court her, I see her, I even have sex with her and everything goes well until she tells me or I understand that she’s getting affectioned or falling in love with me. When this happens I feel terrorized, I feel discomfort, I feel entrapped, I want to escape.

My behavior becomes hateful, rude. And then she leaves me. When this happens I loose all my phobias, I deeply suffer because of abandon, I look for her but it’s too late. And I subside again in the suffering of loneliness. This is my destiny.

I’ve been through hell.

September 10th, 2014 by Anonymous Please add a comment

So here’s my story, I’ve been been with the same guy for 3 years and it was sweet at first but things got rough and he dumped me for another girl who he claimed to be madly in love with.

I noticed that he has known the girl for quite a long time. In our first two years I keep doubting him cause I know love will never last as I witnessed it everyday in my house. Heartbreaks between my parents and also my sisters with their boyfriends.

I was already convinced that he was my forever but it didn’t last that long. Now I have trouble trusting guys. I keep telling myself they will eventually leave me. I need help! Someday I wanna get married and be happy. But being philophobic just stopped me from wanting to love someone. ;(

Cheat myself out of real happiness

September 10th, 2014 by ChristiPlease add a comment

I’ve been over this guy for a while now. I went through all the stages of grief – it felt like that after 7 years together: denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance, but I’ve become aware of a sixth stage: philophobia.

As a human being, I started noticing my need for physical attention and made an arrangement with a friend of mine. When he mentioned a few times he was falling for me, I shot him down. Hard. And now it has come to bite me in the ass. Hard.

I feel something for this man, yet I am so afraid. So afraid to tell him, to show him and even to admit it to myself. I keep hoping that he’ll say something again to get me out of this state – to get me to know how to love, but mostly be loved again.