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So I’m not crazy.. Sweet.

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I was in a terrible relationship for many years with a person who had no idea about the value of my worth. Once I left him, I immediately began a relationship with a man who saw my worth instantly. I think I was just in need of the feeling of validation.

Once I was able to see myself in the reflection of his perspective, I gained my own. And then I was ecstatic at the thought of being single again, once I had been proven right that I was a beautiful person, inside and out; and I had only made the mistake of staying so long with someone who had made me question it in the first place.

The guy who valued me wanted to be with me; and was ready to start a new life with me, and I thought I was ready to reciprocate, but then, very swiftly, my feelings for him began to dissipate.

My first thought was maybe we moved too fast, and I was afraid he would lose interest.. But it was I who had realized that I never wanted to lose my eternal solitude; though I believed he was right for me in every way.

I started feeling like being with him would be like forcing myself to live in a tiny box, even though he never once gave me the impression that i could not be myself with him. I love myself, I’ve found myself, but don’t want to subject myself to any more close relationships; not even friends, which I don’t have many of.

I’m grateful for any help I receive from loved ones, but I absolutely despise dependency on another person. I’d rather die than feel like a burden.

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