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Category: Female philophobia stories

How do I overcome this?

I am 23 years old this year and I’ve never had a romantic relationship. I always want to feel loved by someone when seeing my friends hang out with their lovers and act lovey dovey. And I wonder how it feels to fall in love.I have dark childhood memories where my parents got divorced just right after I born so I never got attention and love from someone who I could call father. He sometimes visited us twice a year and my mother end up raising me and 3 other siblings alone. Watching my mother raising us as a single mother really made me think that we really don’t need a man in the house.When I got older, when someone showed their interest in me, I have zero confidence towards them. And I always think that they just come in my life to make my life harder just like what…

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Made a mess and I don’t know how to clean things up!

In grade 10, I went through a tough break up with a guy who was 9 years older to me and was a teacher of mine for 2 months during the summer; in arts. I was in a relationship with him for 2 years in secret with only a few people knowing. We’ve been through quite a deal of events together and it surprised me that we actually lasted for those 2 years. There’s nothing we really haven’t done together apart from soaking ourselves together in the bath tub.We had a pretty strong bond, though sometimes he would reminisce about his ex-girlfriend the entire relationship, who I stole him from. In fact, she had no idea who I was. But I had my flaws too when I cheated on him with his relative one evening, just so I had a strong reason to dump him and don’t come running back…

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Love and body weight

Sorry that I am not a English native speaker. I am 25 years old and I haven’t even dated a single guy.I don’t have any confidence about my body coz I am a little bit chubby. But beyond that I truly believe that I cannot build a good relationship with my bf. I can’t let anyone to come into my life. I pretend that I didn’t not know their approach to me. But I know that I strongly want a perfect relationship with my bf and stay happily with this relationship.What am I supposed to do now? Gaining weight is related with my problem? If it’s so I really need a good curves feminine body.

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Out of my mind

I really fallen in love with a guy. He also melt in love to me. I and he got understanding and happy in our past time. We texted a lot of messages and talked with phone call at night. We met in outside as dating. He said to me “I am so happy when I talked with you. This time is amazing for me.” I feel this may be love. Once, he asked “you are so brave and strong lady and your confidential is so tie and I am scared of you.” I think this is make me kidding.This feeling is not true for me. I mean this feeling has no long time. Suddenly he don’t call to me and he don’t reply my messages. I texted “Happy birthday” wish. He didn’t reply to me. My heart will be broken slowly and I was so upset and angry so much.…

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I’m not entirely here

i try to love. i recently just broke up with my boyfriend. i have been a mad person since long before we met. he loves me so dearly. but how can he love someone he doesn’t know? the darkness is all I’ve ever known. boys don’t want me for “love, they want me for pleasure. and if you do want me for love, you’re lying. he told me he doesn’t like how i don’t care about anything. so i broke up with him. i have never dated a person more than once. he could have been the one, but hurt is all i know best. why don’t i care? because if i did care, then people would have a reason to hurt me. people don’t realize that love doesn’t exist. if it did, we would have happy endings. but in the end, we’re all dead.

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Construction/Destruction

So my story is – lost my father at three, forced to move away from my grandfather at seven who also died a sudden death when I was twelve, sexually abused by a family member, got cheated on by two of my exes, abused by one and inexplicably dumped by someone else.I want to love but there’s only so much repair that can be done before a building finally collapses.

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