Skip to content

Category: Gay philophobia stories

I can’t breathe now.

So I have this boyfriend I’m dating now. It’s my third. After like 2 failed relationships this past 6 months I am really exhausted. Now I just assume everyone in my life is gonna leave me soon, which is probably true. Sometimes I wish I could just not fall in love so deeply but then I just uncontrollably fall in love. And then I would cry alone at night just because the thought of him leaving me for someone else. Like even though he treated me well and nice and do everything. So then his friend, A, come along and we become a trio that is so awkward. I just can’t let go the fear that he’s gonna dump me for A and I’ll just literally panic every waking minute. And A is this fuckboy that is flirting with everyone. And my boyfriend would just simply tell him everything about…

Read the full philophobia story... I can’t breathe now.

A problem with no solution

I’m a bisexual girl (I think) and in my society it’s very wrong to be gay and I agree (don’t get offended it’s just my opinion) I know it’s not a choice to be gay or straight but it’s still wrong and u should avoid those situations IN MY OPNINION. But I like this girl but she’s straight and even if she wasn’t i wouldn’t date her because I’m scared that she’d do it just for fun or she won’t love me as much as I love her and I’m the type of person that doesn’t like people easily and I’m very picky with people in general but when I find someone I like, I like them more than I should and get really sensitive and jealous towards them. She’s also a very pretty girl so I’m sure a lot of people would flirt with her and I’d get angry…

Read the full philophobia story... A problem with no solution

Do I follow my heart even though I know what’s right?

I met her my freshman year in college a week before school started during orientation. She was out of my league & she had a bf but I still agreed to be down with her. I wanted her to myself & I couldn’t just say that like that I thought shed laugh at me & call it off got with another girl to make her jealous & it worked & i had her all to myself.It was good but then I found these messages & I just felt crushed. So I started back talking to the girl & then just made everything worse. I didn’t love this girl she was just a decoy to get the girl I really wanted but I was so afraid that the girl I wanted would just leave me so I kept her around & that’s where I messed up at.I didn’t believe in myself.…

Read the full philophobia story... Do I follow my heart even though I know what’s right?

Is this something that everyone goes through?

I’ve had this shameful past for a long time. I was intimate with this girl, which is how i realized that i was gay. I kept going on for about a year or two, but every time it happened, the next moment i felt total regret. It wasn’t just her that i had a physical connection with either. I kept thinking to myself, “What would my friends think?” and “Will everybody treat me differently?”This secret lasted for 5 years – and every year got worse and worse. Then one day, she told this guy that i liked and his friends everything….. after five years she’s just like “oh yeah by the way, I had a deep physical relationship with the girl you like, so basically she’s a lesbian – anyways how’s your day?” I didn’t know that she told, until afterwards where every time i passed by him and his…

Read the full philophobia story... Is this something that everyone goes through?

…………… YES I am certified Philophobic!

I keep falling in love with a wrong person. I love both guys and girls. but sadly, i always ended up licking my own wound when it comes with LOVE. When i love someone, i’ll love them 100% that even when they hurt me, i still said “it’s ok”.My biggest heartbroken moment was happening last year. i was in love with this girl. Very very deeply. I really care about her, i sacrifice so much for her. And i told her she don’t have to return my love, and just let me love her alone. That i can handle. but she ended up confess her love to me. And 2 weeks later she said “oh i don’t have feeling for u anymore”. i feel so hurt and so devastated. since that time, i feel afraid for love. i don’t wanna get hurt like that anymore.So whenever i develop crush on…

Read the full philophobia story... …………… YES I am certified Philophobic!

paralyzed mask

Masks. i don’t believe that i’ve ever being either totally honest nor trusting towards anyone period. Family, friend nor foe. None.raised in a strict christian background and a twisted family that birth me not out of love but more of responsibility because coming of age, lived in a country where homosexuality is viewed as a laughing stock or shunned by most if not all and deemed illegal by country law…which makes any activities or movement impossible to be expressed let alone protestedalways been an observer in life. where people crowd in to a new fad, i seem to be observing in the sidelines. discovered that i am different. people no matter how much of an outcast, would have at least a support or someone to share their tears and fears with. unable to share even the simplest of trust let alone love. for some reason, i don’t have any real…

Read the full philophobia story... paralyzed mask