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Losing feelings

This is a couple years back but we met online. I know people say online dating never lasted and I think so too but I tried it anyways.I met this girl and I really liked her and we became a couple. We lived across the state and it was boring doing the same thing. I was devoted to her and very loyal but she wasn’t.For the first 3 months when we started dating she lost interest in me because of the distance we have.After we broke up for 1 month, we went back together again because she missed me and I still loved her then. We broke up a couple of times and it was very tiring.Then one day, she told me she cheated on me but I still gave her another chance. After that we broke up again. We lasted for 9 months. We talk once in a while…

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Philophobia love

You are confident You are happy You are who you want to be Living most of life’s experiences Yet fragile in one particularly isn’t everybodyAn eternity you have been searching And rarely you get this feeling Where you are both truly smitting Oh boy this is exciting Alas others share this fabled story telling I finally meet a perfect being after sharing and talking you are everything I dream of believing it’s only been a short while and hope this feeling will never die For a moment, my life becomes whole Finally a person I think worthy of my soul Thinking of you more than now and then Hoping you are also dreaming of me, amen Seeking my attention Returning your affection There is no misconception There is definitely a connection We make ourselves vulnerable and both want to be lovable So passionate and unstoppable This is truly unforgettable My…

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Losing Control

I always thought that love was for everyone, that there was somebody out there to relate with, to grow with, to share everything with, to spend the rest of your life loving and caring for. I guess for me that will just stay a thought in my mind, never truly becoming a reality. I grew up in the church, in fact my whole life was focused on God and his word until recently. Throughout this time I read that love was kind, patient and caring from the word but learned that love hurts, fights and doesn’t last forever from my parents constant arguing and discourse. I tried to see the light in these situations, look for God and follow his ways, but this only led to heartbreak. I transferred this warped perspective to my relationships, judging those who didn’t live similarly to my lifestyle and pushing those I got close…

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She doesn’t need to be afraid anymore

I love a girl who is severely afraid of love, or maybe commitment, or both. I have known her since our younger days…not that we’re old, so I think in a way it gives us a little extra in the connection department.We have spent time with one another, gotten physical (sex), and can talk to each other for days about anything! The time we do spend together is amazing and the world doesn’t matter. She’s all I think about, we have talked about kids and marriage, we both know we want it but I feel like no matter what I do sometimes she just pushes me away.Our marriage talk will quickly turn to her telling me to “find someone better” and I feel shitty. I try and remember she doesn’t mean it and maybe I say the wrong things, or don’t support her as she wishes.However I am affectionate and…

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Alone

I am not a English native speaker, forgive me if my words are hard to understand.I am 19 this year, i used to be with a lot of friends, having fun around, that was really a happy life. But things has changed when i grew up, i am very underweight and skinny, i felt i’m different from the others, i tend to stay alone and away from my friends, tend to hide my feelings when talking to someone, and lacking of confidence has really caused a big impact to my life.i had a relationship with a girl, but it end up real bad, i felt everyone is against me when we broke up. My parents argue a lot 2 years ago, almost divorce, i felt my life is total fucked up and wanted to commit suicide. I forced myself not to, i tell myself everything is going to work out.i…

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Beautiful Strangers

I always fall for strangers because of I feel secure with their anonymity. I’ve only liked 4 for my entire life and I’ve never been near them nor said hi in person. My body has an automatic fight or flight response whenever they are near. I loved looking at their faces, they were beautiful but the thought of them looking back and smiling gave me chills to the point I want to hide and not be seen again.I’m bi and I never liked anyone deeply enough because of my detachment issues. I have no idea what it feels like to be loved and I don’t even know what it feels like to truly love someone.The thought of affection scares me. Yet it feels horrible that I have a phobia like this. I always just look at them, day dreaming and drawing them. I know it sounds creepy but that’s all…

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