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I’m the constant third wheel

First of all, id just like to mention that it makes me feel a lot better knowing im not the only one out there like this. I guess, like everyone else here.. I want to go stick my head in the floor ostrich style when i have to think about love.Ive already pushed away a bunch of guys and a few girls because i cant handle it. i dont understand how its even possible to love someone but be terrified of it at the same time. Its almost like im begging for rejection so i dont have to deal with the aftermath. The only problem is that everyones pairing off, im the constant third wheel, and i feel like im going to grow old and die alone. heh alright, maybe that last ones a bit dramatic.. but i just wish someone out there could tell me a way to get…

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“I love you” — the words make me feel sick

Well, i am younger then most people whom clam they have philophobia… I have been in some long distance relationships, and have gotten hurt in most. There are people who do put those dreadful three words out there at times..”i love you” I can’t help but feel sick. Nor do i feel anything..most normal people would feel a sense of joy…but i feel nothing. It’s like those words have had their days. And worn off. I don’t know what to do. I am still very young. And that fact that i am afraid to get close to people, scares me. I didn’t know this was an ACTUAL condition. I knew i had trust issues…i just never thought this would involve my happiness.

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I sabotage and cause fights

I am definitely a philophobe. I was very in love with my husband. He abandoned me, cheated on me and caused me so much stress I lost almost 40 pounds. To this day, I can’t not feel love for anyone. I am just too afraid. Men love me. I have so many to choose from but even when I feel confident enough to try I can think of a million reasons to be alone. I find fault in him and me-it’s so much easier. I sabatoge almost every aspect. I am the Queen of causing a fight. I am excellent at putting up walls. I am a master builder. I hope one day I can be cured of this awful phobia.

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Frustrated, alone and empty

I’m an 18 year old girl and I grew up in a dysfunctional family. At the age of 14 my parents had a divorce, and at age 15 I had my first significant breakup. The divorce was really traumatic since both of my parents have mental issues and they didn’t know how to handle the situation appropiately with me. My first “boyfriend” turned out to be a liar, a cheater and a sexual predator. This caused me to avoid close contact until this day. If a friend turns out to like me, I run away. If I suspect a guy is starting to like me, I scare him away. I have literal FEAR of physical/romantic contact. I haven’t dated for three years. I feel frustrated, alone, and empty. My solution? Platonic love. I’ve been obsessed with guys that I know will NEVER like me or even know I exist. (e.g.…

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Can’t risk loving again

Really this is a pointless story.. and I hate myself that I can share it with you (the anonymous readers) and not with anyone that I thought I care/d about…I’m 20, Lastyear I had just finished my first year at University.. then I had a long summer of 4 months… A girl that had been working for my parents since I went became good friends with me… over the months we became best friends, I’d think about her everyday.. my first experience of love and I didn’t even know that I was in love… I knew everything about her.. literally everything, I had even planned places to take her on a date and to show her the time of her life hoping that she would reciprocate the feelings and appreciate that I care about her… we became bestfriends and then she got a boyfriend, a customer at my parents business……

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