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Can’t risk loving again

Really this is a pointless story.. and I hate myself that I can share it with you (the anonymous readers) and not with anyone that I thought I care/d about…I’m 20, Lastyear I had just finished my first year at University.. then I had a long summer of 4 months… A girl that had been working for my parents since I went became good friends with me… over the months we became best friends, I’d think about her everyday.. my first experience of love and I didn’t even know that I was in love… I knew everything about her.. literally everything, I had even planned places to take her on a date and to show her the time of her life hoping that she would reciprocate the feelings and appreciate that I care about her… we became bestfriends and then she got a boyfriend, a customer at my parents business……

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I want to be comfortable liking someone

Im 15, almost 16 and i am scared out of my wits of love… Just the thought of being with someone forever makes my whole body tense up and i feel like every cell in my body is burning.Although i have had my share of boyfriends i thought that love was something you have to warm up too. So i stayed with them for as long as i could stand. Now i am so scared i havent been with a anyone in a while… just the thought of being with someone makes me want to light myself on fire. maybe theres no one for me? it seems like everyone has a match except me… I thought it was just because i didnt want to hurt myself by using someone else…And you know everyone is always talking about how love is the best thing in the world, and how it makes…

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I push them away and don’t know why

I seriously don’t know whats wrong with me.. Im seventeen, I’ve never really been in a “serious” relationship. I have had my share of boys though, but it seems as though I always push people away. I always seem to attract a friend. I have a lot of guy friends and they never seem to wanna be just friends and as soon as they make a move I run like theres no tomorrow. If not right away, eventually.. Right now theres this guys who claims to like me, a lot, but I can’t seem to grip it. I mean here he is telling me that he likes me and he’s never met anyone like me but I cant even tell him how I feel, he even called me cold an heartless. I don’t know whats wrong with me!, and know its probably too late.. Xoxoxo

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I regret being so mean

I’m only 15 so i’ve never been in love or anything but i have had a boyfriend. I don’t really think it counts because it was only for two days, but it was the longest two days ever. I’d had a crush on one of my best guys friends for over a year and i would always imagine what it would be like to kiss him and to hold his hand and fall in love. I wanted to, really badly. I’d never told anyone but all my friends still could see it and they insisted that he liked me too and that i was just blind, but of course i never believed them.Then a year later in eighth grade my friend, let’s call her Carly, decided to take matters into her own hands and let my guy friend know about my feelings for him and she thought she was just…

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He leaves when it gets too real

This is both a story about my philophobia and my ex boyfriend who caused it.I got my heart broken by my best friend. It was the most classic love cliche thing ever. I’ve always been an affectionate person and open to giving love and receiving it back. My best friend, who I’ll call Jack, and I had a crush on each other since we had become close but we didn’t tell eachother until one day by accident we found out and we decided to do something about it.Jack had a problem where he’d just…leave. Without telling me where he was going or without answering texts, emails, calls, pages and any other things you could think of he’d leave and come back four months later and pick up where he left off. He did it before we decided to be together and promised me he wouldn’t do it to me again.…

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