I have been single for seven years. Anytime I meet a guy, I let him into my world for a couple of weeks to a month and then I dump him for no good reason. I am scared I guess of developing a relationship.
I have never had a boyfriend. My heart has never really been broken. I’m a freshman now. I do know that you CAN be in love even if in High school. To me its a matter of being in love, falling in love, or just infatuation.I dont let myself believe I have any phobia’s. But I have complications when dealing with relationships. I will think a guys nice and all, but when it comes to developing feelings I somehow-i guess- talk myself out of it.
I’ve been single for six years. My last boyfriend became injured in an accident and suffered brain damage. He became a completely different person. I stayed with him as long as I could but he kept lashing out at me in anger so eventually I left him. I guess I’ve never gotten over it. I try to go on dates periodically and at the slightest hint on intimacy I panic and want to run away.
I’m only 17, but I’ve had my share of “love”. I know people always think that 17 year olds can’t possibly know what love is, but trust me..I do. I’ve been heart-broken so many times. My relationships are always long ones, I always give them my all. But either the guy is too immature, or simply keeps playing me.I try and try, and always fail. I think everything is good, then it falls apart without me being able to do anything to save it. I’m terrified of ever letting myself get close to someone again. I feel like no matter what I do, I always get hurt. It always makes me feel like a horrible girl, even though I’m far from horrible..I am terrified to ever tell someone I love them again, for fear that they too will walk away..
When I was young … I fell in love…. he broke my heart so bad that I hated everyone and everything…now it’s been 4 years after he broke my heart I have gotten over it… but I’m scared to love again… I’m scared to let people in … I say it to my friends but I don’t mean it all the time….. But I cannot except love from guys or my own dad…. I hear it all the time “I love you” I just feel sick to my stomach….I get headaches, I have trouble sleeping….and I hang around guys that I know that will not love me…I push away guys that make me feel like they are showing they love me … I get mad to scare them away…life has been hard…..I want to love and I want someone to love me…. but as soon as I feel it I…
I guess really I’m just scared of a relationship and letting someone into my heart, I had to break up with one of the nicest people in the world and I hurt him so much simply because I was terrified of liking him. I hate having to say no to people to when they try so hard to get you to go out with them and I can’t I just get all shaky and completely loose not because of them but because I just can’t handle the thought. Life is so lonely and I wish to open up to someone so badly but if I even think of trying I break down -_-