I have had 2 extremely bad breakups before, one right after another. These both took place when I was 15. Ever since then, I have had an extreme fear of love.
When someone says they love me, I always just freeze up, and change the subject. I feel like a horrible person everytime, but I cant say it back, no matter how much I think that I might love them.
I’m not a shy person in groups but when I’m alone with a guy, I get all awkward and won’t hold hands, kiss, or anything. I’ve gone to therapy before for this and he said that it was because I’m simply scared to get emotionally attached and be vulnerable. So my therapist tried to work with me to break my wall down, but I’m still the same as always.