My “curse”

I didn’t know about philophobia until I recently discovered it on tumblr.

I have always thought I was abnormal. I called my fear of love a “curse.” It feels like I’m cursed by the fact that no matter how hard I try, I can never love someone, who loves me, back.

I see relationships everywhere I turn. Relationships are all over my school, my work, and my home life. I honestly don’t understand how people can love each other for so long. I don’t understand because I cannot relate. I wish I could be loved and love back. I wish I would experience that so called “euphoria.” But I can’t. It’s the curse.