About a year ago, I met this girl named Ally.
I don’t know what I am, if I’m bi, or gay, but I really don’t care. All I know is that Ally is my best friend, but I do also think I love her.
Every time I have liked someone, and had them return my feelings, has ended in tragedy. I am fine to love someone…as long as they don’t know, or don’t return the feelings. Every time it has happened in the past, where I have confessed, or if another person just has an interest in me, I freak out. I isolate myself from that person, and I completely break down.
I’m scared it’s gonna be like that again. I know I love Ally, but I don’t want to lose her. She is my best friend…and I’m ok with just that. I wish I could tell her, I wish I could have her return my feelings…but I’m too scared if It’ll happen again.