Oka, here is my deal. I am 17 and have slept with 58 women. Various ages, body types, personalities, and races. I have had plenty of girlfriends and threw the words “I love you” around freely. All that changed with Erin. I fell for her like nothing else in this world even mattered.
I have always been coined as an attractive guy and I stay in great shape so getting her was no problem at all. I dated her off a dare so she didn’t mean anything the first go round we had. She wouldn’t sleep with me the first time we dated so I cheated on her with the class whore. We got back together and that’s when I fell. We had sex and all I could do afterwards was lay with her and I refused to let go.
Things were great and I began to panic a lot when we were together so I cheated on her and let her find out. I did this multiple times and on purpose because I kept going back. I found this website on google because of my friend and it hit me. I went to my therapist (already had one because I suffer from manic depression) and she agreed. I went to counseling and now I am working on finally being able to stay in an actual relationship. It’s hard and I am still scared but I want everyone to know there is hope.