I feel like once in my life I was once able of loving someone but I made a life altering choice that changed that. I won’t go in to details but after over two years the guy I loved threw me away as if none of what we had mattered and it broke my heart.
A few months later I was asked out by a guy and I accepted but I found my self mean and better towards this very nice guy who only wanted to be with me. We had been friends before and he told me that he loved me and I had a panic attack and I quickly ended the relationship.
I found that I was scared to love anyone and I ended up hurting a really great guy because of it. I still can’t get over the guy who broke me and I can’t see myself loving someone ever again, there is so much pain and it hurts to think about love.