When I was in middle school, there was a guy that I really liked. One day there was a football game at school. I decided to attend the game since he played in the game. After the game he tried to hold my hand. I didn’t feel comfortable, so I just thought it was just me. However, when he tried to kiss me the next day, I got really scared. After that, I told him we shouldn’t see each other anymore.
I’m a Junior in high school now. Ever since then, I’ve never been in a relationship and I always made sure I kept my distance from liking a guy. There are times where guys tried to kiss me. I get really scared. I feel like I can’t handle all the things that people do in a relationship.
I think I have philophobia, but I’m not sure if I do. I just know that I get shortened breath and I get a really scared feeling when anything romantic comes my way. I’ve also been rejected from the guys I liked, could this be a factor to the fear I have too? I have so many questions on my condition.