I’m a 12 year old teenager… I think that I have philophobia… You see, I’m wondering what’s it like to have someone, other than your family and friends, love and care for you… but when I like a guy… and he confesses to me that he likes me back, my heartbeat gets irregular, I feel butterflies in my stomach… then suddenly… I’m so nervous and afraid that the guy will court me, fall in love with me and after all that hurt me… and I don’t want that… nobody actually wants that… These are some of the reasons:
– my mom and dad are having a huge fight often
– I’m thinking that my dad’s cheating
– I have seen people who have been hurt so much by falling in love
– helped people to forget people who hurt them
and others… too many reasons why….
Sometimes, I think that I’m a total loser and a stupid person… because I know that he’s out there waiting for me to come out and run to his arms… a guy who I know who’ll accept me for who I, love me and never play/cheat on me… but how can I find him… if I’m too afraid to be hurt and love someone?