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I dont know if I’m philophobic or not. Just lately I have been thinking that there is something wrong with me because I have never had a boyfriend.

My family always make me feel like I have no friends because I don’t have much of a social life. My brothers and sisters are in relationships and I always look like the odd one out and it makes me feel pressured into getting into a relationship.

But the thing is that I am not comfortable about being in a relationship. 2 years ago I got asked out by someone that lived a couple of hours drive away. I said no because he lived too far away, but we still talked as friends on facebook, I was comfortable talking to him like this but then he told me he loved me and it started to scare me. I didn’t talk to him much and then he tried to ring me, I was just so freaked out which sounds really silly as its not even face to face!

Also a couple of months ago, a guy asked me to go round his house, I knew that he already liked me but I felt pressured into going. I was so scared to go round but when I was there I was fine, as if we were just friends but as I left he gave me a hug, now I know this sounds really silly but its just because I knew he liked me and we were just getting too close and I hated it. Whenever he tried to get in touch with me I just ignored him because I was so scared of speaking to him or even seeing him in he street.

It just sounds so weird like if anybody wants to meet up with me I just get so scared because I don’t want to get too close to them. It’s just complicated though because I don’t like to think of being alone for the rest of my life, but I just can’t be in a relationship.

2 Comments

  1. Anonymous Anonymous

    I AGREE WITH YOU!!!! YOU’RE NOT ALONE…I’M GOING TO YELL AT MY THERAPIST ON MY LUNCH BREAK TODAY…NEED TO VENT ABOUT IT TODAY!!!

  2. Liz Liz

    This is exactly how I’m feeling! I thought nobody would ever understand, but here people do 🙂

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