I have had 2 major relationships, they were hell. Abusive and messed me up, really bad. Since then I have had a variety of one night stands and fuck buddies. Anytime someone started getting too close I ran. Ran like hell.
Now here I am just started seeing someone a few days ago. This is an amazing man I really like him but I am fucking scared. I have issues with anxiety and just assumed this was from that. Then I started researching fear of relationships and this Philophobia sounds like what I have.
I have been getting very anxious just thinking about being in a relationship with this guy. We are keeping things open but still I am getting the speeding heart beat and breathing and sense of dread. I do not know what to do. Every instinct of mine is telling me to run like hell again. So ummm yeah.