I’m a teenager and have known for a while that I’m afraid of love, I just wish that guys would take a hint. I wouldn’t call myself attractive and my fear keeps me from even flirting with guys, but I’ve always had more “admirers” than any of my friends. Many of them were awesome guys. The kind girls look for, but when they tried to get close I wouldn’t talk to them for days and become isolated from everyone around me.
Then this boy I had been friends with for a long time dropped a bomb. He didn’t just like me he was in love. It scared me to my core and I couldn’t sleep that night. I later told him my fear because of his persistence. To this day he’s the only person that knows. I know he still loves me. The way he looks at me sends chills down my spine. My friends are jealous that I have a guy like him who likes me but I just want to scream.
I don’t know why I have this fear. I never had the courage to even attempt a relationship. I cant understand anyone having feelings like his.