I have tried several times to get a girlfriend but each time i have failed and each time i have been more heartbroken then the last. Ive reached a point where i can not put down my inner walls and try to get close to anybody. The thought that someone has feelings for me scares me more then anything else. My mother will tell me she loves me, but i cant say the same thing in return.
When someone hugs me i freak out, and when i even shake hands with someone i feel weird inside.
All i want to do is open up but i feel like all hope is already lost.