Being a teenager people dont even think i can comprehend the word love, but i do. I know i do because i had it once. We dated for a year and he broke my heart slowly cutting off all contact without even a reason why.
My current boyfriend started as just a cushion to the sting but we became very close very fast. And the physical aspects of the relationship was more then i have ever experienced. He would do anything for me and i want him in my life for a long time, but when he said love i froze. How is it that i can share something so special with someone, a part of me i have never given to someone else and still feel disconnected?
This world is so full of divorce and heartbreak. I am to afraid of getting hurt to give all of myself to somone the way i did before. Or the way my father did or my gradmother.