I always fall for strangers because of I feel secure with their anonymity.
I’ve only liked 4 for my entire life and I’ve never been near them nor said hi in person. My body has an automatic fight or flight response whenever they are near.
I loved looking at their faces, they were beautiful but the thought of them looking back and smiling gave me chills to the point I want to hide and not be seen again.
I’m bi and I never liked anyone deeply enough because of my detachment issues. I have no idea what it feels like to be loved and I don’t even know what it feels like to truly love someone.
The thought of affection scares me.
Yet it feels horrible that I have a phobia like this.
I always just look at them, day dreaming and drawing them. I know it sounds creepy but that’s all I can do… to express.