Im the type of girl who cant say no to people. People think that I am naive and that people manipulate and walk all over me. The truth is I know when someone is taking advantage of me or trying to manipulate me. I can read people like a book. But when it comes to love I am lost. I just cant open up to people. I feel like its a weakness. I think may have been because of my mother. She would build me up and make me promises and then break them and bring me down. She hurt me and my dad so much I just find it hard to trust anyone. People seem to be drawn to me but I am not really drawn to people. I just sort of back off when someone tries to get close and I hate it. People only see what is on the surface, but I would like my friends and the person I am afraid to love, see what is under the surface that is me.
I have been single for seven years. Anytime I meet a guy, I let him into my world for a couple of weeks to a month and then I dump him for no good reason. I am scared I guess of developing a relationship.
I have never had a boyfriend. My heart has never really been broken. I’m a freshman now. I do know that you CAN be in love even if in High school. To me its a matter of being in love, falling in love, or just infatuation.
I dont let myself believe I have any phobia’s. But I have complications when dealing with relationships. I will think a guys nice and all, but when it comes to developing feelings I somehow-i guess- talk myself out of it.
I’ve been single for six years. My last boyfriend became injured in an accident and suffered brain damage. He became a completely different person. I stayed with him as long as I could but he kept lashing out at me in anger so eventually I left him. I guess I’ve never gotten over it. I try to go on dates periodically and at the slightest hint on intimacy I panic and want to run away.
I’m only 17, but I’ve had my share of “love”. I know people always think that 17 year olds can’t possibly know what love is, but trust me..I do. I’ve been heart-broken so many times. My relationships are always long ones, I always give them my all. But either the guy is too immature, or simply keeps playing me.
I try and try, and always fail. I think everything is good, then it falls apart without me being able to do anything to save it. I’m terrified of ever letting myself get close to someone again. I feel like no matter what I do, I always get hurt. It always makes me feel like a horrible girl, even though I’m far from horrible..I am terrified to ever tell someone I love them again, for fear that they too will walk away..
When I was young … I fell in love…. he broke my heart so bad that I hated everyone and everything…now it’s been 4 years after he broke my heart I have gotten over it… but I’m scared to love again… I’m scared to let people in … I say it to my friends but I don’t mean it all the time….. But I cannot except love from guys or my own dad…. I hear it all the time “I love you” I just feel sick to my stomach….I get headaches, I have trouble sleeping….and I hang around guys that I know that will not love me…I push away guys that make me feel like they are showing they love me … I get mad to scare them away…life has been hard…..I want to love and I want someone to love me…. but as soon as I feel it I push away.